~ stress is stacking up ~

ok ... i think it's really getting terrible ... I am starting to get Short Term Memories now... after work I start to talk nonsense... I can't think properly and analyse what i should be doing and i am like being rushed to finished my stuffs but i just can't seem to have enough time. i just am not settled down and the pace is so fast for me.

now i think i cannot study already... cause the registration seems to have ended and moreover, with my current work schedule i doubt i can handle working and studying at the same time.
~ now i really am very "pei fu" of you when you have to cope with your work and study. Good thing that you can now finally concentrate on working now. ~

right now, it may seems that i may not be able to meet on friday for my net meeting also if i have to work till 8 plus... by the time i meet up it's gonna be 9... unless it falls on my off day.

anyway if i can survive through for the next 3 months, i think i should be able to cope it. but that is if i can survive till then... if not, i really dunno what will happen to me... stress until cannot think properly... actually i feel such a burden i want to find someone to talk to but no one seems to be really interested to listen... i am starting to bottle things up into myself now which i always tell others not cause it's not very healthy but... sometimes you just dun have a choice. you want to tell someone but someone is not interested to hear about it and when if there is others who want to hear, you are not comfortable to talk to and also sometimes some matters cannot let alot of people know also... some things just cannot be told also... i learnt it thru the hard way...

anyway that's all... sorry if the past few posts of mine are very pessimistic or very down but that's just because i really am down and stressed up i guess...

~ nevertheless no matter how busy, i will not fail to think of you and pray for you. hahaha... somehow i feel that it's a wrong priority but... sorry i am just stubborn ~