~ unexpected ~

i went for youth service today. somehow i managed to drag myself there and somehow the message seems to be talking to me... i dunno... we were told of to stand for God. only a handful did not stand and i am one of them, not only that, when they responded to the altar call, i stood and walked out of the place... haiz... what's going on with me...

anyway i went for dinner with friends and also went drinking. feeling tipsy now. my net leader msg me to meet tomorrow morning at 730am and i replied that i may not be able to make it cause i am drinking with my friends outside. he said he hoped that i am not drinking beer or liquor and it's wise for me to go home early to rest. but i replied that i am drinking beer and he remain silent. i guess i am a letdown to them...

today saw her and somehow can tell that she's not feeling well. felt like asking if she's okie but... anyway i just keep praying for her... what else can i do but pray to God about it? probably that's the only thing i could do for her now also...

~ take care and God bless ~