~ horrible night ~

last night was horrible ... i felt really cold inside me. I off my fan and wrap myself up in the blanket and i start to "defrost"... yah... defrost i can feel my like my body starting to get warmer and starting to sweat and inside me there are like still some parts still cold ... it's a very bad feeling that makes me unable to sleep... i was in that state for like 2 hours before i fell asleep... i woke up in the night a couple of times to find myself wet from my sweat but after sweating i do feel alot better...

morning, i woke up to prepare to go to work. i do feel better now. i started to get ready and leave my house. then in the bus, because of the air con, i start to feel unwell again, can feel my body heated up... when i reach my work place, i was abit unwell... i got no energy to talk that my voice is hardly hearable... i tahan till lunch time and went out to lunch alone and then after my duck porridge, i start to feel very unwell... i walk back to the branch after lunch to rest awhile before i start working again. i figured i need to keep myself occupied so that i wouldn't feel the "sick monster" attacking me... i started to count coins which a customer deposited earlier to ensure they are right. it's quite alot. thereafter, i feel better and all the way until after work.

after work, i decided to go to the doc and well since i am covered by my company, i need to go to their selected clinics so that i dun have to pay. i printed out the list of companies and started to see which one is near my place. i walked around AMK and eventually decided to go to one opposite my block cause it is easier to find... haha but when i got there, it's closed. next opening time is 7pm - 9pm... well as such i walked back home. waited till around 730pm then i went down to the clinic again...

but wah really that clinic has no "ren qing wei" lah... no feelings one... machiam like zombies. the receptionist like so sian see already i not sick also will become sick lor... haiz... not friendly at all. i think i chose the wrong clinic. anyway dun think i will go back there ever again. i will probably just go somewhere further in amk to register another one. the doctor still okie but he also never ask much, see patient like rushing for train like that... perhaps mine is common sickness but can't you do alittle bit more? like.... i dunno lah... but i went in less than 5 mins i come out liao. can you believe it? i merely told him the symptoms i had and he shine torch, take temperature, measure pressure and listen to my heartbeat then okie liao... wah liew ... not even tell me anything more about what problem i have.

that's the problem with the doctors nowadays ... they have no "ren qing wei" they don't have the heart to heal patients but just for the money sake... people are just working for money and nothing else... where's all the emotions??? i really hate it lor... we are all born with emotions, can't they show abit of it? i am like visiting robots lah... haiz... whenever i see the doctor shows on tv, i admire them and would think where can i find such doctors. but i do know of one doctor whom my friend will always go which is just near her place. she always goes there and will also chat with the doctor. the doctor is good and when he go reservist, she will rather wait for him to come back then go get medication from him... i think so far that's the best doctor i have ever heard of... hmmm maybe next time i go there let him see also... heehee ...

okie enough whining, let's talk about my sickness... i got sore throat and coughing. when cough, my heart will be very painful. i teared a couple of times today when i was in office and coughed badly... the throat was so itchy that i coughed really hard and the harder it is, the painful it becomes... also body is still aching all around and at times feeling rather weak. but it's an on and off thingy... not to mention i feel cold inside. heehee...

well got 1 day mc for tomorrow but tomorrow work half day only so might go back to work but depends on how well i am tomorrow. today never meet up for my net cause i dun feel well and am supposed to go visit someone in the hospital... i dun wanna pass my virus to others.

Speedy recovery to me =) and dear friends, please take care of yourself too... God Bless ^^